Anticipation

I like anticipation. I’ve found, as I get older, I enjoy anticipation more.  Christmas is the obvious example: you have all the build-up, all the the time and thoughts spent on that one day and then … it comes. And goes. That too, is another thing I’ve found as I get older.  The more you…

Winning Silver

So, I spent a little more than 2 weeks thinking about how to make this post.  Two weeks that, in many ways for many reasons, most good and some bad, felt much much longer.  I’ve talked here before about how I love OB/GYN, and that was the residency I was hoping to match to. I…

So, Lena Dunham got a hysterectomy: a medical opinion

So, after aimlessly browsing on the web this morning, I came across this article on The New York Times. Lena Dunham is an actress, director, show runner of Girls and a…polarizing public figure, to the day the least. I’ll start by saying I don’t have strong feelings about Dunham either way: I never watched Girls,…

A HelloFresh review

So, this week I tried HelloFresh, the delivery grocery/meal plan service that is available in Canada and the USA.  As such, I thought I’d review that experience. (Also, this isn’t an ad. I would totally take a sponsorship if it was available though 😉 ). But, seriously, as an introduction, let me first set the…

New Years Resolutions

So, Happy New Year!! Gosh, 2018, can you imagine it? 2017 seemed strangely long for a year, both globally and personally, so it was both a relief and a strange sadness to see 2017 pass by.  2018 is a year of big milestones personally for me; matching to a residency (knock on wood), graduating med…

Ending on a high note

So, tomorrow is that last day of my last elective in medical school. It’s kind of a non-milestone milestone.  I still have 8 weeks – 4 two week blocks – of selectives left, to say nothing of interviews and matching and the LMCC. It’s not like I’m done with medical school. Still, I found myself…

Post burnout thoughts

So, third year Med school kicked my a**. No use mincing words. I came out of my 5 weeks at the second hospital for Internal in a mentally and emotionally exhausted place. I was stuck in a thought spiral about getting old and dying, of loosing the people I loved to illnesses like the ones…

The Thirteen Core Commandments

So, a new crop of core clerks (third year clerks) are about to start, or perhaps have started already. And if you’re reading this post, you might be one of those clerks making the exciting and scary transition from classroom to hospital.  So, in that vein, from my jaded perspective of a CC4 (passed all…

Wellness

I’ve been in a funk, lately.  Or at least, that’s what I’ve been calling it. It’s a kinder word than ‘depression.’ Though honestly, I don’t think I meet the criteria for depression.  I just…haven’t been feeling well. Mentally well, physically well. I find myself one week away from the end of third year, and sometimes…

Dragging on

So, I’m 5 weeks away from being done with core clerkship, and I can’t decide if this year was the longest or the shortest of my life. Honestly, I think it might have been both. Because don’t get me wrong, this year has been long. Last week I was at the hospital for 85 hours….

Dear Zachary

A couple of weeks ago, during consult psych rounds, in the middle of a discussion on when psychiatrists had a duty to report mental illnesses in other medical professionals – a very interesting conversation, I should mention – one of my preceptors mentioned that she’d been a classmate of “that murder suicide.” Now, I’m not…

Psychiatry 

There’s this memory I’ve found stuck in my head lately. I’m 18, 19, perhaps 20. I’ve been let into a locked ward at a mental hospital, still in my work clothes; a skirt I’d never wear now, all long cotton pleats and a yellow and black and white geometric patterned shirt I think I might…